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       Excerpted 
  
Can of Worms: THE DELIVERER 
Khrafstar plays Xena and Gabrielle like a fiddle in THE DELIVERER. 
     SEARS: 
     [168] So in doing THE DELIVERER there were a few things that had 
     to be accepted. One, this was going to launch us into an extremely 
     dark area. One of the things about the rift is that the rift is 
     best viewed all in one evening. Because it aired over several 
     nights and sometimes the studio interrupted it with comedy 
     episodes, the rift didn't have the continuity that you needed. We 
     wrote it and produced it with the continuity. But because it was 
     broken up there was just no way to do it. 
  
     [169] Until the last few minutes of THE DELIVERER
it just looks 
     like a regular XENA episode. It's really the last few minutes that 
     launch you into what's happening with the rift. As most of us 
     know, THE DELIVERER had a lot of pressure on it because a gossip 
     columnist came out and used a word which I don't like to use in 
     regard to this, for a very important reason. 
  
     [170] She referred to it as a rape. As a sidebar here, and you can 
     use this if you want, there's a very important reason why I refuse 
     to call this a rape. It has nothing to do with protecting myself. 
     It has nothing to do with being afraid of the word. I've had a lot 
     of debates with people about the definition of rape. For example, 
     not myself, but someone came up with the idea that if this was 
     rape, then Mary was raped. Even then I wouldn't use that word. 
  
     [171] I got a lot of nasty mail. I got a lot of hate mail. Very, 
     very angry mail. One person said that any time a woman carries a 
     child without her consent, when she was impregnated, that is rape. 
     My response is "If I force a woman to have sex with me then
as 
     long as I wear a condom it's not rape?" There are just too
many 
     ways to debate that word. But this is what I believe, and I firmly 
     stand by this. I know rape victims. I have been involved with rape 
     victims, in relationships with women who have been raped. Being 
     supported on a pillar of fire while some mystical god impregnates 
     a seed of a demon child inside of you is not rape. Talk to a rape 
     victim and find out what real rape is. To me, it's disgusting to 
     try to apply their torment to that act on television. That was a 
     fictional fantasy. Sorry to be graphic, but having a man on top
of 
     you, forcing himself on you while you're screaming and perhaps 
     even beating you to keep you quiet, that's rape. I refuse to use 
     that word because it diminishes what the reality of the word is. 
  
     [172] If you want to say "Gabrielle was violated" then
hey, go for 
     it. Use that word. She was definitely violated. But I won't use 
     the word rape because of what it conjures up and what it 
     diminishes. But we had to deal with that. As soon as I saw that 
     word in print, I was angry. And if the episode had aired without 
     that, there probably would have been a ripple effect, but people 
     would not have been fired up as much. At the end of the episode, 
     you would not have known she was pregnant. There was nothing there 
     to really indicate that. Anyway, end of rant. We had to deal with 
     that before and after it aired. 
  
     [173] The other thing I did was I tried to put the audience in the 
     place of what Xena was doing. To a certain extent I succeeded 
     beyond my wildest dreams. I also got some slams about that. What
I 
     tried to show was that Xena was so obsessed with Caesar that she 
     was ignoring what was going on with Gabrielle. Gabrielle was being 
     played. Gabrielle was being given everything Gabrielle wanted to 
     believe to set her up. Xena should have seen that, but she was 
     obsessed, she was so much after Caesar she ignored what was going 
     on with Gabrielle. 
  
     [174] Now the question has come up that we just basically changed 
     stories midway through. We got to a certain point and what 
     happened with Caesar? "Xena just walked away! What happened
to the 
     battle?" My answer to this was that the story was never about 
     Caesar, it was always about Gabrielle. But those who asked "What 
     happened to Caesar" were just as obsessed with him as Xena
was. 
     But the moment Xena realized Gabrielle was in grave danger she 
     dropped Caesar and left. She didn't care what happened to Caesar 
     at that point. Boadicea had her army in place and everything was 
     ready to go. But she left, and for me, that was the story. 
  
     Parts Excerpted 
      
      
     THE BITTER SUITE 
  
     [Oh, great, do you know how hard it is to get blood and grassstains
out of white chiffon?] 
  
           Gabrielle is much the worse for wear after the Gabdrag. 
  
     RUDNICK: 
     [179] A couple of episodes after THE DELIVERER (50/304), we get
to 
     THE BITTER SUITE (58/312). Many people regard this as a 
     masterpiece. Yet we also get a lot of criticism, perhaps from the 
     same people who were in the "rape" camp in THE DELIVERER,
about 
     the so-called "Gab-Drag" in THE BITTER SUITE. I was wondering
what 
     your take on all that was. 
  
     SEARS: 
     [180] I thought the Gab-Drag went on too long, to be honest with 
     you. We had a lot of discussion about that. Here was the point to 
     it, and maybe we tried too hard to make this point at the 
     beginning -- for Gabrielle and Xena to reach a point where they 
     could start to redeem each other, they had to reach the absolute 
     darkest part. 
  
     [181] This gets into psychology and gets very hard to explain. If 
     there was any question as to whether they hated each other, that 
     question would have rippled through the rest of their 
     relationship. In other words, we wanted to clear the grounds 
     completely. We wanted to start right from the bottom, scrape every 
     bit of love away from them and rebuild, as opposed to scrape most 
     of it away and leave a little bit of expectation somewhere. The 
     healing couldn't be true if it had to rebuild around that. So 
     obviously the way to get to that is where they both want to kill 
     each other. 
  
     [182] That's what we had to do, that's where we had to get them. 
     That Xena would attack Gabrielle and try to kill her obviously 
     shows her hatred. But the moment Gabrielle says "I hate you!"
and 
     charges at Xena, Gabrielle's slate is wiped clean. She is 
     completely down to a base level. In doing the episode later on, 
     yeah, I think the Gab-Drag did go on a little long. In fact I 
     think most people here feel that. 
  
     [183] But at the time, we put it together so we could make that 
     point. We didn't realize people would get the point three quarters 
     of the way through it. You have two characters starting it off 
     whose worlds have been so destroyed that they're questioning 
     everything. And they realize the only thing they have left in all 
     their questioning is hatred. Now they're directing it toward each 
     other. 
  
     [184] Xena is crying for her son. Ares wasn't there to manipulate 
     her, Ares was just there to talk to her. He was her therapist in 
     that scene and she realized where her hatred lay. Gabrielle, in 
     the sweat hut, having visions of Callisto, was the same thing. She 
     was focusing in. You'll notice in the sweat hut she's focusing in 
     on herself. She begins to blame herself. But that changes before 
     they go into Illusia. She focuses it back on Xena. So that was the 
     whole point of the Gab-Drag, to demonstrate, very brutally, 
     obviously, the fact that these two people would kill each other. 
     We had to wipe the slate clean. 
  
     RUDNICK: 
     [185] Apart from the fact that it was a monumental task by its 
     nature, did you find it hard to write this episode? The reason I 
     ask this is because there is an awful lot of deep emotion and 
     difficult issues that I imagine would bring someone to a new level 
     of clarity about themselves or others, or drive them nuts. 
  
     SEARS: 
     [186] [laughs] I think it was a little of both for us. This movie 
     -- movie, I refer to it because it came out that way -- this 
     episode was a tremendous amount of work on everybody's part. Chris 
     [Manheim] and I wrote it together. Toward the end of it, just 
     before production, Chris was doing all the production rewrites.
I 
     was off working on something else. I can't remember what it was, 
     I'm sure *you* remember what it was, but I had to get off onto 
     that. 
  
     [187] We had to decide what our format was going to be very early 
     on. Chris and I, along with Rob, R.J., Liz, and everyone else, sat 
     down and tried to chart through the progression of their healing, 
     realizing, as everyone should realize this, by the end of the 
     episode they are not healed. But they're to a point where they 
     want to help each other heal. Which is the most important thing. 
     That's an altruistic thing, that shows caring. So we wanted to get 
     them to that point, to the forgiveness point. When we charted 
     through it, we originally came up with -- I think five points -- 
     of psychology that they had to deal with. 
  
     [188] The first one was "wipe the slate clean", which
was the 
     Gab-Drag. The second one was "fulfillment" which is fulfillment
of 
     your hatred. Since the series is called XENA it was Xena's hatred, 
     she kills Gabrielle. That was the fulfillment of the hatred. 
     That's why Callisto had the line "Did that work? Did that help
to 
     kill your little friend?" Because Xena is sitting there thinking 
     "No." 
  
     RUDNICK: 
     [189] How very poignant when we see SACRIFICE II later on. 
  
     SEARS: 
     [190] Right. Then we had to have "cooperation" which in
this case 
     wasn't as highlighted because of how little time we have to tell
a 
     story, to accommodate a song. But cooperation was basically then 
     working together to get to the next step. Not that they loved each 
     other, it was expediency. 
  
     [191] I believe in one version of the script there was a door that 
     they approached and the door was very wide. I'm paraphrasing what 
     we had in there because we had so many different images. But it 
     was like one side had a handprint and the other side had a 
     handprint and they were different sizes. What you realize is that 
     to open the door, you had to both put your hands in there at the 
     same time, symbolic of cooperation. 
  
     [192] Then we had another thing that happened during it, a wall
of 
     fire which prevented Gabrielle from doing what she had to do and 
     Xena had to do something to help Gabrielle but the rationalization 
     was she just wanted to get through. Anyway, there was a whole 
     complex thing there. As it was, it went away. [laughs] It was too 
     time-consuming to shoot it. 
  
     RUDNICK: 
     [193] As it happens, judging from everyone's comments, it worked 
     out very well in the end. 
  
     SEARS: 
     [194] Yeah, my favorite scene from the psychological points was 
     the echo chamber. This was something that I came up with very 
     early and kept it in every draft because it's an extremely 
     important thing. The idea is very simple. If you're angry with 
     someone, anyone who's been in a relationship and had an argument 
     with somebody, at a certain point, you aren't hearing what they're 
     saying. You're only taking the words they're saying so they can 
     make you angrier. So you can turn the words back on them. You're 
     in a total defense/attack mode. You're not trying to understand. 
     So you can't hear each other. All you have is the argument. You 
     don't say what you really, really feel. You just say enough to 
     attack. 
  
     [195] We tried to symbolize that in the "Hall of Echoes".
The 
     moment you start rehashing and blaming, the echoes become 
     impossible, you can't hear. But the moment Xena says to Gabrielle 
     "Tell me what you're feeling right now," and Gabrielle
says "I 
     hurt." That is the totally honest moment. And there's no echo.
So 
     these are all psychological points we were trying to achieve so 
     that they could get to the point where they could forgive each 
     other, and more importantly, where Xena could forgive herself. 
  
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